My problem (well, one of them, anyway) is that I think too much. I spend way too much time alone, inside my own head, gauging the world as it relates to me. I get lost considering how things affect me, thinking about what I want and need, what I should be doing, and how I should be doing it. It’s only when I get out into the real world and gain perspective that I come to my senses, and realize that the myriad of problems I encounter are usually of my own making.
Free time is deadly. If my brain isn’t engaged, it makes its own entertainment. Which is never a good thing! Yesterday one small thing didn’t happen that I expected to happen, and combine that with no work and too much time to think and before you know it, I’ve spun a whole world of distress for myself.
I swear, I’m a nut job.
And it’s a slippery slope. Once I start into that dysfunctional thinking, I can’t stop myself. You know how you never notice a blue car until you buy one, and then every car you see is blue? Well, all it takes is one negative thought to pop into my head, and next thing you know it’s invited the extended family, and I have a whole neighborhood of negativity dancing in my brain. Luckily it also works in the other direction – I just need for that one thought to be positive instead of negative, and I’m on cloud nine.
As I said, nut job.
It takes so little to shove me from one extreme to the other. I don’t know how folks can keep up with me. I blame it on my whimsical, dreamer Pisces nature, but it’s probably because I.Think.Too.Much.
If the Broncos game hadn’t been so awful, I would have been thinking more about it and less about the plans I had that didn’t come through yesterday. I apologize in advance to those who have to listen to me complain about stuff that, in the end, either doesn’t happen, didn’t happen, or never was going to happen.
Anyway, now that I’ve realized it, hopefully I can learn to keep my brain occupied and steer clear of the quicksand of emotions that never ceases to derail me.
The coming week is going to be stellar. I have lots to do to get ready. I just need to focus on that, and not on those little things that eat away at me. The princess and the pea.
Here’s to a life lived OUTSIDE of my overworked brain! Oh, and Happy Halloween to all of those who celebrate…I won’t be wearing a costume, and doubt anyone will come over for candy, so I’ll probably be watching Monday Night Football – and trying not to think.