I hate waiting. I hate waiting for something to happen over which I feel I have very little control. Although I think in some instances, whether or not one has control is directly related to one’s attitude. You can lie down and let a situation roll over you, or you can stand up and fight. So maybe control is all in your mind, after all…
Hence, while I wait, I am practicing a confident, positive demeanor. I DO have something to say about this situation – I just have to believe that my opinion counts, or at least believe that maybe I’ll be able to sway the final decision. And I’m trying to remember that while sometimes we can’t control what happens, we can control how we react to it. And in the end, maybe that will also influence the ultimate outcome.
Have I confused you yet? It’s just that something looms that I’m pretty nervous about. It will influence my life in the coming months, and I have no idea how it’s going to turn out. I fluctuate wildly between pessimism and cautious optimism, and wish that I knew which way the wind was going to blow. That’s when I remind myself that I don’t have to be a pawn, but can do my best to influence any decision that’s being made.
Sorry for being so obtuse, but I think the concept could apply in a lot of situations where you feel like you don’t have any control over something, when you actually do. Even if you can’t influence the outcome, you have control over how you react to it. In the end, you control how every situation affects you. You can choose to be upset or thrilled; you can refuse to accept the outcome, or accept it and figure out how to best make it suit your needs.
Anyway, today I’m waiting and hoping that, for a change, things go my way. I’m not asking for much – and isn’t it my turn to grab the brass ring?
Wish me luck, and please send positive, “Beth wins” thoughts. Thankyouverymuch.