I’m working on creating books of my old blog, year by year, before my laptop dies and I lose the cached entries I found. It’s been a nostalgic day, living in a world where my old blog still exists. As much as I try to find the same passion for this one, I haven’t been able to. Maybe I should add the posts from the old blog to this one….when I have a couple of months with nothing to do!
Anyway, I’m working on 2006 right now, and although I’m not taking the time to read the entries, I have been skimming them. And didn’t realize that I’ve been singing the same song for five years, trying to figure out where I’m supposed to live, where my place is in this great big world. Moving here and calling it home, moving there and doing it all over again.
Aren’t y’all tired of reading about that?! Heck, I wrote the entries, and I’M tired of reading about it!
Good heavens, talk about beating a dead horse (with apologies to horses and horse-lovers everywhere). It’s definitely time that I make a decision – or at least stop writing about it. Or accept that I’m a gypsy, a citizen of nowhere and everywhere at the same time, and stop trying to be something else.
Anyway, it’s interesting stepping back and reading what I was thinking, five years ago. Who I loved, what I feared, how I spent my days. The places I lived, the people I knew, the things I did. I’m excited about finishing the books and having them on my coffee table, so I can flip through them and revisit my past. My favorite kind of history: the kind you can touch. (I fear I’ll never convert to an e-reader.)
But right now it’s painstaking work, formatting text, inserting pictures, deciding on layouts. Not that I’m complaining – it’s a project I’ve meant to do forever, just haven’t taken the time. And now that I have it, it’s a good time to get it done.
I can see putting together a book, when I’m finished with these, compiling my “deep thoughts.” Maybe something that I can actually sell in some format. But in the meantime, this is filling my free time, so I’m not sitting around thinking about what I don’t have and what I’m not doing. And who I’m not.
But today I’m taking a break. A college friend lives a couple of hours away, so I’m going to spend the day with her and her kids. She’s promised grilling and swimming, which sounds like the perfect way to spend a holiday. No thinking, no planning, no questioning. Just relaxing with someone who knew me “back when.”
There’s nothing like old friends.
Of course, Tropical Storm Lee might have different plans…but we’ll still have fun, whatever happens.
Those who forget the past are condemned to repeat it. Maybe I need to take the time to read through my writings and see if I can learn anything from myself. Maybe the answers have been there all along.
If I find something interesting, I’ll share. But only if it’s new and different, and not the same ol’ same ol’. Thanks for hanging in there with me through all of my ramblings. I’m so glad you keep coming back for more!
And once the books are done, they’ll be available for sale if you’re interested. You can bet I’ll let you know when they are!